Because I Love THEM

by: Niki Winston

I was miserable and alone. Left to myself, I would have died
In my spirit, by way of my flesh, Because of the pain I that had inside.
You see--- It was in me.
In my lifetime I had been abandoned, neglected, and inexplicably rejected.
So as a result I felt lost, dispirited, calloused and dejected.
…And I didn’t know why…
Maybe I’ll get high…
The only thing worse than my actions, were the thoughts swirling around in my head.
Unspeakable, shameful, perversion.  It was in deep waters I was beginning to tread.
So I went through my life, heading nowhere,
Doing nothing,
When from out of the deep the Lord called me and said,
I’ve made you something.
There was a seed of unworthiness that was grounded deep within me,
You see…
It had been watered, fertilized, and babied, and had grown into a tree.
God showed me that unworthiness that I had embraced and held so close.
And I said, “God, if you’re going to treat this dis-ease, I don’t want just a pill.
I need the full dose.
Take it all! Take it now! Just do it quick, and let it be done!”
And He said,
For you, daughter, I’ve already done it. I washed you clean long ago with the blood of My Son.
You see, the blood is like your Norton Anti-Virus: No threats detected.
No longer at risk… No longer dejected.
Now… but this blood that was to be sacrificed, had to be perfect.
No… threats… detected…
It had to be clean, then it had to be shed,
then buried, then raised
And out of a sinless man, bled.
God saw that there was none worthy, so He knew He would have to send Himself.
To the Earth He came, as His own, beautiful Son, He gave.
 Jesus, a man who knew no “self.”
Jesus came down from His elevation
To relieve a nation
Of its groaning and crying out for healing.
To make us His manifestation.
It is your job.
…And you …And you …And you…
To relieve, to heal, to save: His creation.
“But how can I do that God? Look at me. I’m a mess!
And You’re asking me to save YOUR creation?”
And He says to you:
MY son, MY daughter… I can see you… You’re perfect.
I have made you a new creation.
Be fresh, be new, be WHOLE, be clean.
Be all I called you to be.  Be a sin-fighting machine.
When you see lack, you are the blessing
When you see pain, you are the love.
When they are wounded, you bring their healing.
Your anointing fits them like a glove.
There are so many broken-hearted, but you hold their healing even more.
You witness ignorance, provide them My Word.
Preach the gospel to the poor.
You see there’s no purpose? You give them direction.
You see, they are blind: You are their sight.
I sent My Word to heal their disconnection.
They are oppressed, you are liberty and light
I send you, not because of your perfection.
It’s not by knowledge, training or skill.
It’s with humility that you must lead an insurrection.
And I will provide the wisdom, the power, and the will.
I send you because I love THEM.
I give you success because I love THEM.
I need you because I LOVE THEM!
YOU WILL NOT FAIL BECAUSE I LOVE THEM!
And you will willingly answer My call,
Because I first loved YOU…
More than you can know…
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